Week 27 - Mother Bear
I have been having these dreams during this pregnancy which include wild animals in them. It was baffling to me at first. Why was I having these dreams about bears and wolves? They weren't frightening dreams, I wasn't being pursued by ravenous animals or anything like that. In fact, they were rather peaceful dreams, but nonetheless ones leaving me with questions. What on earth could these animals be symbolic of? After my most recent bear dream this week, I finally decided to look up the dream symbolism. "Bear" with me as I recount the dreams and explain the significance of the animals and locations. This is yet another spiritual/emotional exercise for healing during this pregnancy.
According to one website: "To see animals in your dream, represents your own physical characteristics, primitive desires, and sexual nature, depending on the qualities of the particular animal. Animals symbolize the untamed and uncivilized aspects of yourself." Hmmm....interesting, especially the primitive desires. Could this have anything to do with the way in which I would like to birth, that is unhindered? Let's examine the first of my dreams:
I'm at a natural setting with the children, hiking through woods, looking for a bear. The bear is supposed to be inside an abandoned cabin. I'm next to a tree and a wolf comes up to sniff my rear, but I'm not afraid. We pass by the cabin and are on the porch looking at something flying over the clearing. I can't remember if they were bats (during the day?), swallows, or butterflies.
According to dream symbolism, "to see the woods in your dream, represents life, fertility, rejuvenation, and spring." That seems to apply to my pregnant situation. "You may be discovering your instinctual nature." Cool!
"Bears symbolize the cycle of life and death and renewal. It may signal of period of introspection and thinking." Well, I've definitely been doing that! "To see your buttocks in your dream, represents your instincts and urges." Again, that totally applies. "To see a wolf in your dream, symbolizes beauty, solitude, mystery, self-confidence and pride." Wow, this is fascinating.
"To dream that you are in or see a cabin in your dream, indicates that you succeed via your own means. It suggests that you are self-reliant and independent, yet still remain humble. You prefer the simpler things in life." this definitely goes along with my desire to do this pregnancy and birth thing on MY terms! Lastly, if it were bats that were in my dream, that signifies "your need to let go of old habits." OK, I can accept that. If it were birds, then it "represents joy, harmony, ecstasy, balance, and love. It denotes a sunny outlook in life." Hmmm...that's pretty positive.
If it were butterflies, then I "may be undergoing a transformation into a new way of thinking." That last one sounds like a sure thing.
We're at a natural place again, in pursuit of bears (grizzly), just to look at them. Our guide takes us through this elaborate electronic grid across a clearing to the woods on the other side, explaining that the grid is for our protection. Do we find the bears? OK, so we have more "introspection and thinking" with the bears, the "instrictual nature" with the woods, but what about the electricity and the guide. Well, apparently electricity symbolizes energy, or my need to be revilatized. I can accept that.
The guide was a little harder to define. I had to apply it to what was going on in my life at the time. I had the dream back when I was wavering on the whole midwife issue. In fact, I think it may have been right before I was to meet with that one midwife whom I didn't really like. So, the guide, coupled with the protection of the electronic grid, gets interpreted as my need "to start taking charge of the situation." Oh, how fun is that?
We're in a stilt-like house that's apparently in Africa, visiting another family. There are suddenly several black "lions" trying to get into the house (were they jaguars?). I remember being in the hall and the living room.
I was really only concerned about the "lions." If they were lions, that represents "great strength, aggression and power. You will overcome your emotions and/or difficulties." The jaguars represent "speed, agility, and power." Very interesting, to say the least.
This is my first labor/birth dream this pregnancy. I dream I'm watching someone give birth in a tub, and she does it easily and without any fuss. Then it is MY turn to labor and birth and I wonder why I am taking so long. Then the dream switches to my being in the living room of a cabin. There are two sleeping bears in there. I am with my five-year-old daughter, who overturns a glass-topped table. The table top is perfectly round and I can see the bears through them.
OK, we know the bears are about introspection, and the cabin is about self-reliance. Here's what is said about looking through glass: "To dream that you are looking through glass, represents your openness and non-defensiveness." Hmmm. "To see your daughter in your dream, represents your waking relationship with your daughter and the qualities that she projects." Alright. "To dream of giving birth or see someone else giving birth, suggests that you are giving birth to a new idea or project. It also represents new beginnings or some upcoming event. A more direct interpretation of this dream, may represent your desires/ anxieties of giving birth or the anticipation for such an event to occur." Guess that one makes sense, huh?
These dream symbols were found at Dream Moods
A while back I subscribed to some pregnancy fitness newsletter, so I get these weekly updates I usually ignore. I decided to actually read this week's and this is what it said about the baby's development:
Well, the very active period of 7-10 pm definitely does NOT apply to THIS litle one. I get a nice waking at about 2-3am, enough to keep me somewhat awake for an hour or so. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I really do enjoy feeling this child's movements, regardless of the time of day. It's just that I have this increasing problem with insomnia. I'm beginning to wonder if it is nutrionally-related. Like, if I got more protein in the evenings, would I perhaps not awaken so fully in the wee hours of the morning.
I don't seem to have trouble falling asleep the first time at night, but when I awaken it is very difficult to get back to sleep. I have a lot of trouble switching off my brain. Sometimes praying the rosary in the dark helps, other times I get through the whole rosary and my mind is still racing. I'm sure there's an herbal remedy I could try, I just haven't taken the time to look it up. Oh well, I guess I'll suffer until I do.
Until next time,