Summer's Exciting Pregnancy Journal
As it gets closer and closer, it gets more and more real. And like my mom says, you think it's real now, but nothing compares to the moment when you first hold and see your baby.He's been moving so much and this week I was thinking about him at all ages and what he will be like. Will he be like me and my husband or so different? Will he be shy or outgoing? What will he look like? What will his style be?
I think of him at a year, as a toddler, an adolescent, a teen and a grown man. I can't believe that we are about to embark on a whole new journey. We're not kids anymore, as much as Kelly and I always feel like we are so young. We are young, but now we are young and more responsible than ever.
As I thought about our little boy growing up I got a little emotional, because I will never have these moments back. Right now, everyday, wherever I go, I have this little person inside of me, with me at all times. I feel him move and react to what I do and it is so amazing. I'm already missing this time and reflecting back to it. One day soon I'll be taking him to school and watching him walk with his little backpack and I'll think back to when it was just me and my husband and the excitement and anticipation we had when we wondered what our baby would be like.
Here I am just weeks away from finding out.
I am so anxious to see him and hold him and yet at the same time I am cherishing every moment I have with my first pregnancy.
I remember the morning that I took the test and it was a faint positive. I remember running in our office to tell Kelly and he couldn't believe it. We looked on the internet for pictures of HPT's and what a faint positive could look like. It matched. But, we still didn't believe it.
So we decided to go play some tennis and test again the next day. With each of the 8 tests I took, the darker the positive. We couldn't believe it.
Then each week was a new discovery. What parts did this baby grow this week? How many cenimeters is the baby? Let's tell everyone we know and even everyone we don't know.
I remember the first movement I felt and how every week it was more and more and each month it was bigger and stronger. I read every website, every book, every pregnancy journal and watched every show there was to watch.
I counted down to every Dr. appointment.
Looking at names, deciding on the room, what to register for, picking a pediatrician, eating right, having cravings and just relishing every moment of it all.
I felt this way when Kelly and I got married. After our wedding, I became nostalgic of us planning our big day. Everything about it was so beautiful. We still call it our favorite day ever.
I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful husband and that out of our love we have created a part of us. We have started a family.
I think it is a gift that I can look back at these days and cry at how happy every moment was. Even the challenging ones. No matter what, they are happy. I wish
that everyday of our future with our new family will be one that I can look back at and cry with happiness and appreciation.